I recently celebrated my 38th birthday, and amongst the dinners and celebrations, I found myself mildly reflecting on past years and ones that await me in the future. In doing so, one word kept resonating over and over again, and that word was thankful. Oh, I could go on and on about all of the mistakes I’ve made, the fears of the “what ifs” that still float on the surface of my mind, or whatever else it is that we tend to ponder when we obtain another notch on our age belt—and though there is an obvious undercurrent of vexation, knowing that I’m getting older, floating in the air, I’m not so much as worried about the number as I am about learning the lessons that have accompanied the experiences.
Aging is a funny thing, I’ll tell you. As the years have passed on, I find that some of my interests have disappeared while others have emerged, many fears have subsided, and perspectives have shifted. It’s hard to think about where I’d be without the Lord’s mercy, love, and guidance. Even still, I have so much learning and growing left to do, but it seems now, that I am looking forward to that part of the rest of my journey. It’s funny because I was given a t-shirt for Christmas last year that says, “Jesus loves this hot mess.” Lol. It couldn’t be more true. I still make a mess of things, I’m still growing, and I’m still loved.
If anyone were to ask me what are some of the important things I’ve learned thus far, this post would be never-ending, but I will tell you the MOST important, and here it is:
I’ve been high and I’ve been low, full of joy one season, dejected the next. I’ve gained much and I’ve loss more than I’ve ever wanted to, but through it all, the only constant has been the Lord. He has never left me or forsaken me. He has taught me more than any parent or teacher ever could, He fills every void, and He continues to love me whole, and for that…I am thankful. Words cannot express how thankful. There will never be anything or anyone more important than your relationship with Him. Make it THE priority.
My life is in the Lord’s hands, and because of this, I know that my future…and my present are full of light.